THE REASON WHY I HAD TO DISAPPEAR

Posted: October 7, 2015 in Content
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seond chanceI should be dead.   Let’s start there.  On September 21, 2015 I started to go downhill, healthwise, at a rapid pace.  I was coughing up blood and struggling to catch my breath.   It was late that Monday afternoon when I knew I had to call 911.  I didn’t have the strength to get off the couch and told the 911 operator that the paramedics would have to come through the window.  She stayed on the phone with me until they arrived.  The paramedics worked quickly to remove me from the house and our destination was Wellington Regional.  They were moving at the fastest pace possible so I knew this was serious.  This thought was supported even further when the one in the back of the emergency unit asked me “Why did you wait so long?”

I was unconscious by the time I reached the hospital so I had to fill in the blanks by questioning my doctors and medical staff.  I had pneumonia.  This caused a heart block.  My heart rate fell to 22.  My other organs were slowly shutting down.  My mother was contacted late that Monday evening and the doctors were honest with her;  They didn’t know if I would make it through the night.  I would remain unconscious, hooked to wires and machines, for the next six days.

I may be ridiculed, by some, for what I share with you next.  Let me preface what I am about to tell you by giving you a bit of background of my religious beliefs and upbringing.  I was raised Catholic.  I stopped going to church a long time ago.  I believed in a Supreme Being and an after-life.  I was never one to read the Bible or one to devote much of my time to prayer.  Now let me share with you what I learned.

There is a heaven.  I know because I was outside the doors.  I begged God for another chance;  for the ability to make a difference and use the talents He has given me.  I begged Him for forgiveness and promised that I would use a second chance to make a difference in my life and attempt to do the same in the lives of others.

When I finally regained consciousness I was told that I did actually “die and come back.”   My mother mentioned that when I was fighting to regain consciousness I kept saying “I’m sorry.  I am so sorry. Please give me another chance.”  Physically I was very sick but spiritually this was an awakening and something that has changed my life.

I learned the heart block caused damage to my heart and I would need a pacemaker.  On Monday September 29, 2015 I was transferred from Wellington Regional to JFK Medical Center, a hospital known for their cardiac care.   One week after my transfer and NUMEROUS tests, pills and pokes my permanent pacemaker was installed on Monday October 5, 2015.  Yesterday, October 6, 2015 I was finally discharged and returned home.

I am on the road to recovery.  I pop more pills on a daily basis than Keith Richards does.  I can’t drive for another two weeks and I follow up with two doctors next week.  I need to take and log my blood pressure and pulse on a daily basis.  Having been diagnosed with obsessive-compulsive disorder, social anxiety disorder and general anxiety disorder this is the least of my problems in fact I just did it five minutes ago and of course I logged all the numbers into my computer.   Yesterday was the first day since September 21st that I was on my feet and moving around for an extended period of time.   It’s both amazing and embarrassing at the things I took for granted. So many people showed concern for me and for that I am drastically humbled and forever grateful.  I have been given a second chance and I plan on delivering on my promise to make a difference.  We all face struggles on a daily basis.  Some days are better than others but I don’t think God gives us anything we can’t handle or is without reason and purpose.  Thank you for taking the time to read this.  I truly believe that what happened to me has a purpose.  You reading this blog entry is part of my spiritual mission.  Thank you for your time, concern, understanding and support.  Enjoy the rest of your day.

Comments
  1. Roni Paporto says:

    Thank God you are better. sending you prayers, love & support

  2. Nichole Boland says:

    Danny, I’m glad you are okay. You went through so much! Take care of yourself!

  3. amy says:

    danny! i am so glad you got the help you needed, and the second chance you asked for. also, welcome to the pacemaker club! if there is amything i can tell you to make the pacer a more comfortable experience (i’ve had mine 8 years now) please feel free to let me know. there are things you can expect and things you shouldn’t expect, some of which the docs will tell you, some they won’t. there are amazing forums available….I’m just glad you are ok, and on the road to recovery.

    • My OCD has already kicked in on this LOL. OCD is quite interesting it can drive you in positive way or bury you deeply in a negative way. Thank you for reading and thank you for the support. I look forward to this new chapter in my life :).

  4. Rodney Elkins says:

    what an incredible experience. we serve a God who thankfully gives us 2nd chances! Anxious to follow your journey – and see how you will positively effect other people.

    • I cannot express properly in words how much I appreciate your support. I’m still amazed at what I went through. I know that this wasn’t random or by chance. I eagerly await my next challenge. Thank you again Rodney.

  5. randi says:

    Hey Danny, I’m so glad to know you are on the road to recovery. I can identify with hitting an emotional/spiritual/health related bottom of different sorts just about 5 years ago. God was there for me too, and countless others.He never leaves us… Keep on keepin on’.
    This is a beautiful life we are given. Enjoy xoxo

    • Randi….you have no idea how appreciative I am for your kind words and support. I keep telling people that I look at this as a “gift.” I’m a stubborn bullheaded son of a gun and this was the only way I could face what truly matters in life and how to define my purpose. I needed to have this happen. It forces you to slow down and face reality. I’m more than lucky. I am blessed and I can’t wait for my next chapter in life 🙂

  6. kim says:

    So glad to hear you are on the road to recovery and thanks for sharing your story. Its time to count your blessings including your mother. Wishing you the best.

    • Thanks for the support Kim. I was just talking to a very good friend of mine in Denver. I explained that if I had a chance to go through this or not I would choose to go through it. It was actually a blessing. This experience was necessary. Many questions that I had about life and purpose were answered. Now I just have to make a difference :).

  7. Robyn says:

    Wow… glad to hear your on the mend. Sending prayers, strength and positive energy your way!

  8. Denise says:

    Danny, I have been following you since your radio days, and have been waiting to hear from you again. I wondered what could have happened & I had no idea what you had been going thru. Thank God you get that second chance! Praying for you & your new beginning my friend!

    • Thanks Denise. I have been blessed with a talent to speak and write. I have zero interest in playing music and doing silly things like making an ice cream sundae in my pants. I’m addicted to the news and being able to put my unique spin on various topics. Things will fall into place. I can truly and honestly say that at this time I am ready :).

  9. Mary says:

    Glad to hear your on the road to recovery. God does work miracles 🙏

    • I left out some details that involve health care workers that crossed my path. They also came with a message. Further solidifies any doubt one would have if this was a “coincidence.” Very much needed. I am excited for what lays ahead.

  10. Well, wow… What a profound and frightening experience, Danny! I’m delighted you’re ok, I wondered when your familiar, wonderfully acerbic witty repartee was suddenly absent from Facebook. It sounds like a surreal and life altering scare, and I’m sure your Mom was terrified, as well. Rock on with your Danny self, slowly, gently and with new found purpose. And please, take care of yourself! =)

  11. Mike Elder says:

    Hang in there Danny. You have been a friend for many years and a source of great times and good memories…and of course, great laughs. Stay strong.

  12. Teresa Cavaliere says:

    Thank God you had the will to live and ask for forgiveness! I am happy to hear you’re on the road to recovery and forgiving yourself. The glass is always half full. If and when the days pass and you have a moment of thinking the glass is half empty. Remember it’s refillable. Happy you’re here! Spread the goodness… All the best is coming your way now that you opened the door to belief, faith and hope. God Bless you Danny! xoxo

  13. Krysti Wolfe says:

    Such an amazing story! I had tears in my eyes reading it. I am so glad you are on the road to recovery. Stay strong! Thank you for sharing it with us. You will do awesome things. 🙂

  14. Diane says:

    Rock on…my radio friend…..clarity is great~!

    • Very excited and grateful for a second chance. I’ll feel much better when I don’t have to down seven pills a day (only for a month). There will be nothing I won’t be able to do and I plan on making the most of this second chance.

  15. caliban7 says:

    Hey Danny! Deep breaths my friend – rest up because all is well – talk soon ; )

  16. Cynthia says:

    Omg
    Danny, I never met you but listened to you everyday on 97.9
    I think that was it! I’m now back in Ma.
    I am so happy for you my friend. I watched you sink into a solitary, depressed …sounding state. I was worried for you..and knew you had so much more to offer. This is an incredible gift you have been blessed with. Please writing, you are truly inspirational. Thank you for sharing.
    Cyndy

    • Thank you for the kind words Cyndy. I was having a conversation last night with a good friend in Denver and we both agree that my talents involve speaking and writing. I just have to find out what that opportunity specifically is. The Man upstairs gave me this second chance for a reason. I have no doubt HE will push me in the correct direction.

  17. jim benson says:

    I had a stroke almost 6 years ago. I walked into the ER after being threatened by my boss( he was going to call my mother). I had a BP of 279 over 155 and they called a code blue. It took a week to bring my numbers down and a complete lifestyle change to live. But it can be done. Good luck ,Im pulling for you!

  18. Penny Overstreet says:

    Welcome back.

    Listen carefully and let God point you in the right direction.

    How is Mom? I bet she’s at your house fussing over you now. When your OCD kicks in and she tries to put cut watermelon into smaller containers, remember to thank God for the opportunity to experience it. 😀

    • The odd thing is my OCD has done a 180 and is working FOR me. Pushing me to get better and making me exercise and eat ridiculously healthy. First Dr. followup is Monday so I plan on shocking them.

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